gimikera

I thank you!

Thu, 08 May 2008 14:28:45 GMT

Today I thank you Cj for finally giving me a reason to be mad at you. I know that when you stopped keeping in touch with me for a reason that I still have no idea about, I should have been mad at you. But I am all about the benefit of the doubt and second chances and all that that's why I didn't.

But today, you just kind of did me a favor. And I thank you for that! Thanks for giving me the courage to finally say I am over you. I am finally free from all the burden I've had for the past month.

I gotta say though, it was worth while. When you and I were still together. I'd be lying if I say I won't miss you cuz I definitely will. For now though, I am mad and disappointed and ashamed of you. Never thought of you this way. Which is sad.

Sooo.. forget about the 'love' shananigans I posted before this. Forget all about it. It felt real though!

i found love!

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 18:13:56 GMT

I just came back Tuesday night from my 18-day trip to the Philippines. It was great to be there again with people I grew up with and the place I was so used to. But I wasn't so used to it anymore; a lot of things has changed and it wasn't as comfy as it used to. I had a great time though, that's the whole point.

My sick gramma got better and better as the day went by when we were there. She isn't anything near to being a cancer patient. That's why my mom hurried home so they can take her to the best lung center for another opinion about her illness.

As for CJ and I (see last post)... we're doin' great. Our communication's great and it feel sooo good to feel this way.

At first I was questioning myself as to what and how I feel for him. But that's no question anymore. I am inlove. I can't remember the last time I felt this way for someone. It may sound a wee bit pathetic for others but I really am inlove with this boy. I love every minute of it!

I just wish and hope that we'd stay together forever. Together not literally, but you get my point! Later kiddos.

exciteeeeed.

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 20:26:58 GMT

so it's finally happening. in 7 days, i will set my foot at the mother land again after 7 long years. wow. bhez! it's finally happening! i am soooooper excited but nervous at the same time.

i don't know what to expect and what people would expect from me. *sighs*

anyhoots. there's this boy. (i am making this story super short!). i went to school with him from 1st grade to 3rd grade. then he moved to a different school but came back to my school when we were freshmen. we didn't really talk when he i was still there only cuz when we were kids, we would always write notes to each other saying that we like each other and stuff.

so sophomore year came and i left to move here in the states. we didn't have any communication until a couple of months ago.

we've been calling and texting each other it is so much fun. but then i found out that he kinda dated my bestfriend in the philippines. and i thought, isn't there an unwritten rule between friends not to date your friend's ex-date or boyfriend or whatever?

but i totally and i have been ignoring that rule. it seems like it's fine with Katherine (bestfriend) anyways. let's see what happens when i get HOME.

cj. that's his name. woot. =] butterflies. lol

see you soon!

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 18:08:54 GMT

~~the plan isn't even 100% sure, it's only like 45% sure but for some reason i'm now having butterflies in my stomach, literally having dreams about places and people i want to see!~~

~~i have booked my flight to the philippines on february 21st to march 11th. that is 19 days, almost 3 weeks which isn't too bad i think.~~

~~i have never been excited like this in my whole entire life! it should be a great vacation. i cannot wait.~~

~~see you soon bhez. but i apologize at the same time 'cuz i won't be there for your birthday.~~

slow.. slow.. slow..

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 16:51:40 GMT

I had enough sleep last night but I had a hard time getting up this morning.

Now that I am up, had my daily dose of coffee already I still feel like I can't fully function yet!

It seems like I am coming down with something ... flu ... fever ... whatever it is, it is slowing me down at work. Not that I never slowed down before. But it sucks you know. My body feel heavy, I am nauseated, my throat hurts, I feel like I am going to throw up. NO, I AM NOT PREGNANT! Thank you very much.

I don't want to take another tylenol cuz I've been taking one everyday for the past 4 days now I think. I don't want to end uphaving some liver problem!

it's time.

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 19:51:58 GMT

when i saw you,
i knew it was going to be the last time
i’d look through your eyes.

that one last time,
i saw in your eyes what i’ve let go of.
it was my fault. i know that.

i want to work it out, but i guess
i am a little too late now.
too bad for me huh?

now that i see you so happy with her,
i guess it’s really time for me to move on.

what i am trying to say is that…
i am sorry i didn’t try hard enough.
and that i truly miss you…

no matter how many guys i go out with, no matter how long it has been, i still can't get him off my mind. sometimes i wonder maybe i should go and ask him to just please get out of my head and give me peace for once.

rafael, i've been with 2 guys already since you and i, but for some reason you're still here. it's not like we were together for years right? but why can't i get you out of my head?!

super summarized 2007

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 14:57:11 GMT

wow. it's been awhile. and don't ask me why i am posting here, again. i just feel like it. well, maybe because i found out that LJ isn't blocked on our server like it used to; same with multiply, friendster, meebo and other websites like that... except myspace. boohoo. it's aight though.

okay, let me tell you what went out with me throughout the year. i will start with the second month of the year since i posted in january.

february 2007 - i met Derek. it was a roller coaster ride experience being with him. also went on a valentine's dinner with all of my friends, 22 of us all in all. =] also, i started hanging out with james. ^_^

march 2007 - my sister hit her 30th year. we had a "red themed" party for her... a party which later on became a cocktail party cuz there were so many people who came and there was nothing else to sit on. cool, huh? ... also went to north carolina with friends and family to say goodbye to my cousin Ryan who went to Iraq. (marine corps). on&off with derek.

april 2007 - jasimine's birthday. 2 parties in a row at her place. david told everyone that we hooked up when oh good gosh, we didn't even hold hands. tsk, men, eh? yep. first virginia beach trip with my lovelies Jasimine, Kristine and my sister Charo. hooked up at Peabody's with Mike. hung out with them boys at our hotel room... too much memories. on&off with derek.

may 2007 - my cousin Chinky finally graduated from Georgetown University. all of her family came over to celebraet with her. it was great. i met henry. ^_^ on&off with derek.

june 2007 - another trip to Virginai Beach for my dad's birthday. my sister met Andre... that's another long story. finally ended it with derek. whew! told you, it was a roller coaster ride!

july 2007 - hmm... met Chris. he's probably the highlight of this year... both good and bad highlight.

august 2007 - had a party. went to virginia beach with my sister to visit andre. hooked up with his room mate Sparks (Rod) .... party-wise and feeling all care-free, this was the best one! ^_^

september 2007 - ofcourse, who would forget about this month. went to chicago for my cousin Ruby's wedding. i was there a week before the wedding and it just felt great. it was fun! 11 kids in one roof, how can that not be fun? heehee.

october 2007 - my brother Macho married his girlfriend Diane. that's probably the only highlight of this month.

november 2007 - a week later after the wedding, we went camping in Chincoteague and that was probably the stupidest trip me and my friends took. it was fucking freezing. i heard their cars's engines on at 4 in the morning.. apparently most of them went to their car to get warm.... on the other hand, i stayed in my tent. them pussies.

december 2007 - i love christmas. and it's approaching fast. ^_^ me and my family are doing christmas santa and i am so excited with wrapping gifts and buying presents. luvit.

ofcourse, you can view more and lots of pictures at www.gimikjunkie.multiply.com

It's For You!

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 18:10:18 GMT

I barely watch tv. But then this past few weeks, I have been tuning on every Tuesday and Wednesday nights; juss because of American Idol.

Ofcourse, during the show, they'll be showing commercials. And here, I saw a Coca-Cola commercial that I found really cute. Click on the image to the left and when you get to the website, just look for that image also, and watch it if you haven't seen the commercial.

Random thought: It's fucking freezing out! I feel like I am naked when I'm totally not.

Last night thought: I was with Nick. He came over, we cuddled, we kissed, we talked, he's funny. I like him. At least last night I know I did. Haha. Will see him again tomorrow night at the hookah bar. ^^

Home is now the new Ultrabar

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 14:42:02 GMT

Ultrabar last Friday. And once again this coming weekend, and Justin Timberlake's gonna be there too. I`m not a big fan, but what the hell!

Top pictures: Me with my sis hanging out, chillen for awhile after dancing and going upstairs and downstairs at the club. Bottom pic: me and my sis with Stella. Picture credits go to Chris K., thanks hun! =)

About them stupid boys, I told the new guy (Nick) that it's better if we just stay friends. I mean, I do want a boyfriend right now, but the ones who keep coming are the ones that I don't like. How ironic. Well, I guess it`s not time for a boyfriend for my just yet. I`ll give it more time.

With Andy, I don`t know anymore. I still talk to him, but I think I want time off from him. Space, is that what they call it; chyeah think so.

Like Amanda said, I have to find someone who I can stick with for awhile. And I`ll do that. Not just yet though. I`m having too much fun dating different guys. Haha.

I`m actually going to see Nick tonight. ^^ Smoke them hookah, betch.

Same Old, Same Shit.

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 16:40:00 GMT

So wow, long time no write. Well not really. ^^ I haven`t updated in awhile but it doesn`t mean that I don`t go online anymore. I even log in to this account to view some of my friends` entries (friends only posts). But that's about it.

Alot has happend to me this past month... past couple of months. Good&Bad; but I def. learned from those experiences. I met a guy; a very great guy named Andy. He`s two years older than me but we get along just fine. Not until two weeks ago. He confessed to me something that I know I did before but never will I do it again. Maybe I will, but just for fun. But for Andy, it's a habit... a very bad habit. If you`re smart enough I guess you`ll know what I`m talking about.

Anyway, the moment he confessed to me about it, I told him I`m done with him. We are kind of a couple but not really, and knowing that he`s been doing that since I met him (even befoer we met) just crashed me. He never told me about it. I told him I am done with him but he begged me and he said he needs me as his motivation. I didn`t want him to get even worse; so I stayed. We still see each other, we talk to each other but then again he still does it. I know him too well not to know that he still does it. Two weeks ago, I confronted him about it. He was really honest and I like that, but then again he`s drowning himself into the shithole he is in. I can`t help him when he doesn`t help himself, right?

So finally, I gave up. Don`t get me wrong, we`re still friends. But we don`t talk to each other like we used to anymore. Sure, I am still hooked with him. Hell here`s a story. I met another boy. His name is Nick, he`s my age, and we too get along real well. He tells me how much he likes me and how he sees us dating really soon. I was really flattered, I told him I like him too and all that. You know the drill. But then again just the other day, I told him I can`t date him. Not because I don`t like him but because I am not ready yet. Why if you may ask? Because I am freakin` hooked with Andy!

Can you believe this, I am holding on to someone I am not even sure if I can make it work. Or if he will cooperate with me and make it work. As a matter of fact, I am not sure if Andy feels anything for me, still. I know we had something when we were in the beginning. But now that I don`t get to talk to him as often as I used to (it`s by choice not to), the feelings he had for me could be gone by now. I mean, honestly, what we had wasn`t that strong... but then here I am, holding myself back from everybody ~~just~~ because of him.

Lovelife, why do you have to be complicated? Nina, why are you so complicated?!!

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 15:39:15 GMT

so most of you probably already know that i don't update this unless my bhez updates hers. since she did do so, so here i am.

THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME RECENTLY...
1. i have a new job (med. records)
2. school's taking most of my time.
3. i passed all my midterms with a B+
4. i went to a bachelorette's party where i had a blast. (more info later)
5. i had a bf for 3 weeks, then i broke up with him. he turned psycho and stalker on me, who would want that? plus, he's 28 yearsold... i am 19.
6. i found out that my highschool mentor has a cancer but i haven't visited her which makes me an awful person.
7. i am turning into one of my most hated people... a player...
8. why? because i have been going out with a lot of different guys lately... and i mean, different guys.
9. i am now a full fledge club junkie despite of my busy life.
10. i dont get to go to PI this year, but my parents do.

ill let some of this pics do the talking...

work's calling my name. i'll update more later.

bhez.. i miss you!!! =)

Updates&Crap

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 20:17:25 GMT

So ugh, life's been good. What about ya?

I know I haven't updated for ages, but hey, I've got excuses. It's summer, all I do is go out and pretty much have fun and par-tay! Heh. And then school started a week ago, so that's another reason.

School's been keeping me busy pretty much although I only come in on Mondays, Wednesdays and Friday nights. Between those days are my study period where I really study! Hah.

I have a boyfriend, we've been going out for 2 weeks, but I am not sure about what and how I feel for him. I think I am being unfair that I make him believe I like him when I really don't? Like, he's nice and all, but he's just not my type. I am actually regretting it that I told him I like him. But no. I don't. I know I have to tell him soon, I know I will. I just have to wait for the right time.

Another update for my bhez. And I hope she reads this soon... Wala na tayong difference. =] Remember the last time we talked on the phone and I was screaming because of excitement and all that ... you told me something that happend I think last year. Ring a bell bhez? Heh. I know you get it by now. Love you!

One more thing, I have the worst hangover right now. We had a lil get together here at home last night and I promised myself that I will not get drunk.... but I broke my promise and got freakin drunk! And this one guy named Sean who was sober suddenly told me that he likes me since the moment we met, about 2 weeks ago. I'm like, what the fuuuck, considering he was sitting next to my brother who could have crashed him down. But my brother thought it was really cute and sweet. But ugh, no. I don't like him. I feel very honored though. Feeling ko ang ganda ganda ko. Haha.

The Club Scene

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 21:59:57 GMT

I told myself 2 weeks ago that I will stop going to clubs unless I have a boyfriend. I made a promise not only to myself but to my two bestfriends here in Virginia ( my sister and kristine ) .. they just gave me a look and a laugh telling me that I will not make it.

I lasted 2 weekends without going to a club. I went to a bar, but that's different from clubs with blasting music, drunk people around you, people all over you, and ~~smelly~~ and sweaty guys.

Last night, I didn't want to go out. My sister wanted to, I couldn't have let her go by herself. So just being the good sister/bestfriend that I always am, I went with her and with a couple of my friends. I then failed myself again.

It might sound a wee bit shallow, but in this kinds of situation is when I always realize how I easily fail myself. It was a promise I made to myself.

I am right, I can never make a promise. I never wanted to.

I wouldn't feel this way if I had fun at the club. Sure it was fun hanging out with my friends but guys were... a lil too close last night. They were literally holding my ass! And this one dude won't even wanted to let go of me. I was pretty scared because he was holding me tight and I tried to pull away but he won't let me go. He was, yes, hurting me. I got away from him for like 10 seconds and then there he was again grabbing my hands. I so wanted to slap him but I didn't want to make a scene out of it. I just left the club instead.

On my way out, guess who I saw? ROD! Bhez, you remember him, don't you? From the club way back in February? He was there. We hugged. He held me from my shoulders down to my hands and then he asked me, "Why can't you look straight in my eyes?... I've noticed that from the first time we met." I couldn't say anything but smile. I wanted to tell him that the first time I looked in his eyes, all we did was make out the whole night! Ha ha ha. And then we said goodbyes coz it was like 4 in the morning. Then we kissed. I missed him. We're not ~~boyfriends-girlfriends~~ though. Confused? OH well. =P

The point is, I failed myself but I got to see Rod. It's all good to fail yourself once in a while. Ha ha.

some questions trouble me.

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 18:35:10 GMT

QUESTIONS stolen from Suzette.

1. Do you like chinese food? ish hokay
2. How big is your bed? just perfect for myself. i like it like that.
3. Is your room clean? NO. it's a mess right now.
4. Laptop or desktop computer? desktop.
5. Favorite comedian? I would go for Adam Sandler
7. Sleep with or without clothes on? i almost always sleep with clothes on. once in awhile without anything on.
8. Who do you sleep with every night? with my HUNNiE. (it's a teddy bear)
9. Do long distance relationships work? i like to think it does work.
10. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? uhm, twice, three times maybe.
11. Pancakes or french toast? french toast.
12. Do you like coffee? yeah...... makes my day.
13. How do you like your eggs? srambled.
14. Do you believe in astrology? sometimes, but i dont follow em.
15. Last person you talked to on the phone? my CARROT. Carleen ko!! naloloka na ako.
16. Last person on your missed call list? a number i don't know who's.
17. What was the last text message you received? "so hindi ka na pupunta? lika na kasi dito" - Jay
18. Mcdonalds or Burger King? NEITHER.
19. Number of pillows? five
20. What are you hearing right now? For All Time by Soluna
21. Pick a lyric, any lyric or song? "why do i have to hold on to heartbreak when there's a lot to live for"
22. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? strawberry. straight up.
23. Can you play pool? YEAH!!! Beat me bitch.
24. Do you know how to swim? Yeah.
25. Favorite ice cream? Chocolate with brownie and fudge (prefferably the ones from COLD STONE, haha)
26. What color is your purse/backpack? right now I am using the summer-y theme one I got from Pacific Sunwear
27. Tell me a random fact: never again Nina. never be too attached again. boys are jerks. (that wasn't too random was it?)
28. Ever play spin the bottle? YES. oh yes.
29. Ever attend a theme party? I had a theme party for my graduation. =)
30. What is your favorite season? FALL. Perfect!
31. Favorite quote? letting go doesnt mean it's the end of the world cuz it's just a beginning of another life.
33. Last time you laughed at something stupid? yesterday.
34. What time did you wake up this morning? 930ish
35. Best thing about winter? snow. and winter break. and christmas and new year and my birthday.
36. Last time a cop gave you a ticket? haven't gotten one. yipee.
37. Name of your first pet? COOKiE
38. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated? i never cared at all.
39. What do you do on weekdays? since it's the summer i've been staying home during the day and go out once 6:00 ticks the clock. it's still pretty boring and it's driving me fucking insane and I am so fucking close to killing myself.
39. What are you doing this weekend? relatives are coming for the 4th of july. spend time with them i guess?
40. Are you desperate for anything right now? i need a shoulder to cry on.

Hello Stranger!

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 21:31:50 GMT

Haven't posted in awhile, I've been busy I guess. Haha.

Guess what though, I am finally a graduate!! I waited for this for almost 6 years! And now, here I am, clueless about college. Seriously, I haven't done anything for college, haven't even registered yet, isn't that bad? I know I know.

Been partying a lot lately. Of course, it's a celebration. There was a big party at my house last Saturday which I wasn't very excited for earlier that day, but when people started coming, I was having butteflies in my tummy. Yes, it was a fun night. All of my close friends came and it was just a night to remember.

I couldn't stop thanking everyone that night. They made it very special and memorable. Of course, let's not forget my family for their full support all this time. I owe them so much.

Random thought: I was sitting in our front porch today (while smoking, hehe) and I saw an airplane pass by since the airport is like 10 minutes away from my house. I thought, "I wanna ride a plane!" I want to go somewhere. Maybe to my cousin's place in Chicago. I just want to ride a plane! Besides, I got almost $400 as graduation gifts from people. It should be enough for my plane fare and for my expenses in Chicago. Well, normally, I don't spend anything when I am in Chicago, so I should be fine. Right? Yes.

Wait for my next post and I will talk about my flight and all that. Cross fingerfs... I want to ride a plane!! It's been a year, dude.

Oh btw, my intenet is messed up. Well, the router is. So I am connected with a wire to the cable modem, it sucks once u get used to the wireless world. Seriously.

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 17:36:42 GMT

I have been pretty busy lately which is pretty good. I like it that way better than sitting in the couch and watching TV.

I was in New York last weekend for my cousin’s wedding. I stayed there for 3 days and 2 nights. Overall, the wedding was not bad at all. The party was awesome because my cousin who got married was or still is a party girl. Not to mention it was open bar for the dinner rehearsal and the actual wedding. They didn’t ask for my ID so I got to drink.

I have pictures, 300+ pictures. I just can’t seem to find the time to upload them and share em all to you. I am sure sooner or later, I will though. So don’t worry about it.

Yeah, I am graduating in 10 days. I can’t believe it. It’s finally here! Like all of a sudden, it’s here. I didn’t expect I would feel this way. I mean, it’s a mixed feeling of achievement and fear of letting go. I mean, it’s a whole new world in college! New environment, new ways of classes, new friends, oh gosh, new experiences… that could be the best part. It’s pretty exciting I tell you!

Bhez, The DaVinci Code… I hated the movie although I would have to say I love the book. I didn’t finish it all the way, I have like 30 pages left, but I pretty much get the ending. The movie, I didn’t like it very much. It confuses people about what to believe in and that’s not right. I mean, I know a lot of people came to think about “Was that true” but I think when people do that, they do make sins. Basta, for me, the whole story is BS but I would have to say that the movie was well done except the story line about Jesus Christ and Mary Magdalene. And plus, all I know is Leonardo DaVinci was a sick faggot. I hate him.

Bow.

if only i can walk away.

Fri, 26 May 2006 00:33:00 GMT

I hate my mood swings. I hate it.

- Is it because Mrs. Nunally forgot to call my name under the "Straight A Student" category today at the Art Award Ceremony?
- Is it because I can't wait for the 3-day weekend?
- Is it because I want to see The DaVinci Code and I can't?
- Is it because I can't wait to graduate?
- Is it because I am bored?
- Is it because Wilbert is back from the Philippines?

I think it's the first one and the last one. Geeez, why do I get this way when I talk to him? Shouldn't I feel special because he called me at 2am last night when his plane landed the United States?

It felt kind of funny when I talked to him this morning at 8am. I missed his voice and his uber-sarcasm. I missed the way we fight about the stupidest littlest things.. I just miss being with him. But the fact that I can never have him will always come back to me.

Wilbert is not the guy on the picture in my past post; a totally different guy.

He asked me if I am doing anything tonight or for the 3-day weekend I said nothing and I am free even though I had to go to the Award Ceremony and to my nephew's first play at school, I still said I am free. But then he didn't ask me to hang out.

Why do I always have to be the first one to ask him?

If only I could walk away from this all.

Reunited

Tue, 23 May 2006 23:57:34 GMT

Me and my online ex-boyfriend got back together. His family lives here in Virginia and I am actually friends with them. He's coming here in Virginia on July. I am pretty excited about that. ^_^

THE LOVE OF MY LiFE

Wahaha. Funny, but yeah, he's got me once again.

Goldfish trippen.

Sun, 21 May 2006 21:54:41 GMT

Weird things happened last night. I ate a whole bag of GOLDFISH... the bag is supposed to serve 6 people and it has approximately 55 pieces inside... I didn't finish all of it, but almost all of it!

I was laughing at the smallest stupidest things my sister did and before going out of the door, I check the little peek-window at the door if there are COPS waiting to arrest me outside our house. I was paranoid... it was funny.

And guess what, my sister lost her hand at 2am!

She woke up today with a grin on her face and the first thing she said to me: "Nins, I lost my hand last night!" And then we just laughedn again. What can I say?- it was her first time. Everything moved fast and then slow, then fast then slow again on my first time! Hers was different, eh?

We also tried to watch a movie, and we pause-rewinded it every other 10 minutes of the movie. Why? Because our brains wouldn't function well.

Is this what gets us when our parents leave home on a weekend? Ha ha ha. I think they should leave more often.

And btw, I lied about one of my posts that it was something I will not want to do again.

I lied.

I hope you get what I am tryna say.

My sister and I could get crazy like this...

Tue, 16 May 2006 16:56:34 GMT

I was in my room last night trying to finish a ~~Chemistry~~ worksheet due later today, I found myself in re-thinking my decision about college. It might be too late to apply for Universities, but it's fine. What I re-thought last night was my decision of taking Nursing as a major and minor in something I like, either webdesigning or graphic designing and I am even considering Photography.

My talk with Stella about graphic designers didn't help me any good. It just made me realize that I should do what I desire and not what my parents are making me take. But what do I do? I mean, I have failed my parents enough to refuse what they wish for me to be. I don't want them to talk about me in the future, how I have failed them and how I have failed the profession I have taken (in case I take what I want and fail on it). I don't want that to happen.

I want them to be talking about me, telling their amigos and amigas how proud they are of me for being a head nurse at a huge hospital or something like that.

But what if it doesn't make me happy? I know I cannot tell until I am actually doing what they want me to. The chances of me not liking it is like 70%! What if the only thing that could make me happy is do what my heart desires? I know I am not the best in any of the 3 things I want to do, but I enjoy doing it. I love doing it.

This thought holds my future.

Bhez, I just found out yesterday that Denise' mom in Chicago who is a head nurse in a hospital can get nurses from the Philippines. So we're all set for you. ;)

Updates, boooorrrring!

Sat, 13 May 2006 21:55:17 GMT

Hindi lang nag update bhez ko, di na din ako nag update. Haha.

A lot has happend in the past few days. Prom, Rommel's comeback, me being sick for a week, having another online boyfriend and so on.

I'll break them down to you all.

PR0M. It was not as fun as I have expected it would be, but it was fine. We almost got "put away" by the cops because we were too loud in our hotel room. That was probably the high light of my prom. It ended just like any other parties I've been to. But I had fun. I got to be with my friends and met new people as well. Here are some pics.

Click on the pics!

Rommel. Yeah, I was with him all last night. I haven't seen him since Thanksgiving last year and when I saw him, all I wanted to do was give him a wet and sloppy kiss but all I could give him was a hug. He ditched his girlfriend last night to hang out with me. Well, they had a fight earlier yesterday when Rommel told Diana that he's gonna come visit me and Diana being a control-freak freaked out! Rommel got pissed and left her at her house and went to mine. He came at around 8pm and we sang karaoke till 11 and then we left to get some booze with my sis.

We went to the pinoy bar since I have to bring some flowers (advanced mom's day) to my friend's mom who works at the pinoy bar. Rommel and I got a lil tipsy but he wanted to get my sister's trust so he drove us home. It was very soothing having Rommel drive us. Parang yung song na PASSENGER's SEAT. We stopped by at Taco Bell on our way home and I was feeding Rommel while he was driving. Ang sweet nga daw namin eh, sabi ng Ate ko. =] Ayun lang. He left my house at around 3ish in the morning. We might hang out again later today.

Online Boyfriend. See, long story kasi eh, pero I'll try to cut it short. Si Franz who I've been talking to sa internet and phone for almost 5 years na has a family here in VA. Hindi ako masyadong interesado nuon about his family even though na naging mag boyfriend kami sa online nung 2001 pa. Anyways, last year, I met a guy at a party and found out na sha yung brother ni Franz. Tapos we always go to this Pinoy bar (mentioned above) na mommy pala nila yung isang girl dun. So Franz asked me to bring her mom some flowers, dun kami nag punta last night! Tapos FRANZ asked me out, again! Papunta na kasi sha dito sa VA sa July. Kaya yun. I'll post his pic soon.

Ala ako sa mood to talk about how sick I was. Post ulet ako later. Pagod na ako.

Procrastinator

Wed, 03 May 2006 17:32:58 GMT

I have been procrastinating since, uh, I don't know, birth?

I have to do so many things but I keep on putting them off and doing other silly things I shouldn't be doing. It's stupid. I know I have my priorities set down but I just don't do them. I turn to stupid things and do them instead.

This past Sunday night, I was high. Yes, literally high. I don't want to get into that because it is something I wouldn't want to do again. I did it for the sake of fun and experience. You know how I am. ;)

The night before that, Saturday... I went clubbing with my siblings (Ate Awo, Dikong, & Kuya Mitch) and my friends (Jasimine, Paco, Yeye and Genie).. I was fucked up even before I got to my party place (Washington DC) & then I had to sit outside 1223 club for almost an hour because I couldn't get in and them people have to go up to say hi to the birthday celebrant. I was out in the street by myself. You don't know how crazy people can be on a Saturday night in DC.

The next thing I know, a guy in a limousine with his friends was pulling over close to where I was standing and asking me to hop in. I was so close to doing so, but I managed to stay. Then next person who stopped? - A COP! Haha. A freakin cop. Again, I managed to make myself look alright even though I was half-conscious and half-dead. It was a fun night.

Although when school started on Monday, I realized I am a little behind with everything. This week is a crazy week for me.

Then so will my weekend.

PR0M this weekend!!!

Will be staying at Hilton hotel for everything... prom itself, after-party, the night, the dinner, the breakfast. Should be fun!

Remind me to reset my priorities.

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 02:55:08 GMT

My Friday night is pretty chill. So far, that is. I didn't insist on going out cuz earlier tonight, my mom, my sis and me were having a blast singing karaoke. I had fun I have to admit. It was one of those nights that I get to bond with my mom. I mean, me and my mom kind of grow apart at some point of our lives but then times also come that we have the best mom-daughter relationship. We're not too bad.

So now, I am here infront of the computer hoping that a message would pop saying "I'll pick you up, be there in 15 minutes!" ... but nope, nada. I don't think there's any hope I would be going out tonight. I just spoke to Jasimine about 5 minutes ago, and she's "sick." Fine, if that's what she wants me to believe.

I mean, I am not forcing her to go out and all that. I just hate it when people have to make excuses to get away with the gimiks I planned. I mean, who says no to a night-out? Right? Come on. You got to be a loser if you say no. Tsk tsk. Just be yourself and tell me the truth. Tell it straight to my face. Cuz in that way, you'll never look coward and ofcourse, liar... the two kinds of people I hate the most.

So tomorrow is supposed to be a VIP night for me. I am supposed to go to a birthday bash for this one girl I know (there's a history behind the reason why I talk like this about her!) at 1223 Club. I heard they are having 1223's roff top closed down for the party. Too bad though I can't get in cuz it's 21+... tsk tsk.. so I decided to just go to a different club tomorrow. I think my sister's going with me instead of going to the VIP Party. Isn't that sweet?

There's always a bright side though... I'll be seeing Rod tomorrow. Bhez, Rod is the guy I met at the club about 3 months ago or almost. Remember him?

That's it for now. I will be editting some pictures in photoshop soon and post it here later if I don't get ~~lazy~~.

Random thought: my butt itches! Ha ha ha.

I am so random

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 15:50:20 GMT

It’s funny how easy it is for everyone to say that we are all sick of high school and we just want to go to college. But in reality, it pains most of us just for thinking of leaving home and going far away from home. Not literally home but home, where you’re used to everything. I know I am not going too far from home, but still. College would be different.

Anyhow, I was in Georgetown (in Washington DC, my party place!!) the other day with my sis and Jasimine. We took a walk for a while and just bond since we haven’t hung out with Jaz for a while. Jaz and I saw a tattoo and body piercing shop. We were so close to getting one part of our body (lip, tongue or eyebrow for me then belly button for Jaz) pierced or get a small tattoo… good thing we have to make an appointment first. It was a good thing, because if I got it, I wouldn’t be typing right now. Here are some pics…

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Message to bhez: hoy gaga, cheer up naman. I might have told you this already but here I go again… don’t let anything or anyone let you down. Try to look for things that would make you happy once you feel like you’re in the down mood again. Basta, have positive thoughts. Okeii? Love yah beshy!

Surprise Surprise

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 16:59:25 GMT

So my past days have been boring which is surprising because it was the weekend. And my weekend usually rocks and it’s always normal for me that a life-changing event happens in a snap during one of my weekends. This weekend was different. Although there was a little change in my life when I got home on Sunday night.

I took the train to my friend’s place. Nothing big, eh? I had to go through 27 freaking stops before I get to the station where my friend is picking me up. I took it with my sis, but she got off on the 7th stop to go to her co-worker’s place. So I had to go on and take 20 more stops. Then when I got to my stop (which is by the way the last stop of the train I took!), I had to wait for another 28 minutes (yes, exactly 28 minutes!) before Lloyd gets there to pick me up. Went to Rodel's place then to JR's (we basically picked them up) then finally at Lloyd's.

I was supposed to take the train back to where my sister went off so I can meet up with her, but 2 of my most gentleman friends offered they’d drive me back home. Or to where I am supposed to meet with my sis.

Before going home, 4 of us, my sis, JR, Lloyd and I stopped by at Starbucks and smoke while we sip on our frappuccinos (God the weather was perfect yesterday!) Then after that, we headed to my house and there we chilled and did some karaoke and decided to watch Brokeback Mountain since I’ve been making fun of JR & Lloyd being “brokebacks” when I haven’t even seen the movie.

Pwe! Kadire. I don’t know why they made a movie like that. It’s not like I am against gay guys, alrite? But, ugh! I couldn’t stand it!

Anyways, the highlight of my Sunday was, uhm, having met Lloyd’s big and happy family. Although I was very shy at first, but when Lloyd’s sisters and brothers started talking to me, yeah, I get on with them too. It was fun. Might come over this weekend, again!

I’m at school right now but will be out in a lil over an hour. My friend Jeff is coming over to my house today. We’ve been friends on the phone for a long time (since he lives in TX but moved here in VA about 2 weeks ago). Today will be the first time I’m going to see him. I’m nervous. I just want to get over it, you know? Yikes. Aihihi.

Sige, bhez, fill u in later. Ikaw lang naman nakaka alam nitong LJ ko eh. Don’t tell anyone nalang. Kasi yung story ko, noone knows about that but me and my sister. Parents won’t let me take the train eh. =(